Tag Archives: Music

I will

1 Aug

I will:

  • always wear cardigans. even when it’s too hot.
  • break for squirrels
  • love pockets
  • never understand what this guy at Starbucks stares at.
  • know that I am a nerd, disguised by really big boobs and 5 inch heels
  • play dumb
  • eat weird food just to say I tried it.
  • always be ready for an adventure
  • hope someone will want to embark on an adventure with me
  • pretend that nothing said will hurt me
  • cry in the shower.
  • learn from my mistakes,
  • make more mistakes
  • do my best to keep positive about everything
  • love old houses
  • forget to think before I speak
  • always think that i need another pair of red high heels
  • dance
  • have self-esteem issues thanks to 5 fingers and my 4th toe
  • be healthier
  • smile even when I know you lie to me
  • always love.
  • play my music too loud
  • spend too much time on the phone
  • Think i’m sultry, and then realize how silly i must look.
  • think i’m an artist
  • be more intuitive than i’ll let on or you’ll give me credit for
  • drive when I am lonely
  • remember the day that I knew <3, but wouldn’t admit it to myself
  • always love matte lipstick, even though i’m scared to wear it, and just opt for lip gloss.
  • leap, even though i’ve never had a net.
  • wonder why i didn’t believe
  • always be a little scared about not being good enough for someone
  • be excited to see him
  • come across as incredibly narcissistic
  • pretend that I am the only one.
  • Always be curious.
  • feel invisible
  • expect him to kill spiders. especially the spring loaded ones.
  • be a little scared that I give too much of myself
  • be a little scared i don’t give enough
  • always be a little sad I left Nashville
  • Miss my room mate from Germany. I hope to see her again in the near future.
  • fear I will always compare myself
  • be happy just being me.

Waking up From Deep Sleep – Handsome Prince = Still Acceptable Aquistion of Sleep

4 Mar

Apparently a deep, long period of sleep is a theme for the old school Princesses of the fairy tale world . Of course as far as Disney goes you’ve got, Aurora, Belle,  and then my favorite (based solely on her red lips and wardrobe) Snow White, after her fateful apple eating experience…at least it turned out good, handsomest prince and all.

Sadly I wasn’t awakened by my prince, but I did get some really good sleep! I have been lacking in that department more so than I thought. I am aware that you can’t *actually* make up for lost sleep, but I certainly feel better. I got off work, went to the gym (toned tummy here I come!!!), showered,  came home crashed, and was asleep by 0830.  I chronically suffer from insomnia, so I was surprised when I woke up at 1600, went to the ladies room, had some H2O, sent well wishes to a friend,  and went right back to bed until almost 2300.

So yay! I thought I’d share my outlandish happiness over pillow time. 🙂

Tomorrow is a JC day for me, but I’m conflicted about how long to stay… I was planning on attending a Post Secret  show, but I’m now contemplating otherwise.  I may just take my book and curl up at Starbucks for a few hours after I run my errands…quite honestly, though, I’m starting to get a little tired of Starbucks. The last few times I’ve been inside, the music has been very blue and the people seemed brooding. I normally get to meet and talk to quite a few people while I’m there. Maybe I’ll see if my bluegrass peeps are having a jam session, and chill there.

Whew there is a lot going on for me in March, and what I hoped to be a “take care of things away from work” month has turned into an “I’m sorry…did you expect to have a life outside of work?” month. Oh well…I still plan to cramming some personal time in.

Alright…I think that’s enough for today.

From Jilted Status to Lyric Love

23 Feb

So I was checking my email and I was debating about changing my status for goldmail when i decided better of it…when what popped into my mind to change it to turned into a chorus…and then a verse…and then a bridge. I didn’t even know what i was typing. I read it after I couldn’t type any more…there was nothing left to come out. Now I’m stuck. I need to revise. It’s been so long since I’ve had a whole song just flow with out help. I’ve written them both ways, forced and flow, and flow always takes off better. Most of the time I get snippets that need to be added to. I’ve worked on a few with some professionals, written some jingles,  and have a collection of snippets of fantastic ideas that if I could get with someone who can look at it from a different angle, have amazing potential. I don’t pitch a lot, mainly because I haven’t been able to add music to most of them. The few I have, some one else did for me.  I won’t put my new lyrics here,  since it is an open forum because….well, that’s been an issue before for me, a sore spot.  But I’m really excited about it!!!! (Clearly, it was enough to make me blog it, lol). But I just thought I’d share.

Curiosity Kills the Cat

31 Dec

…in my case it causes the cat to over analyze, and then think that since the questions go unanswered that the cat has completely failed.

Okay, okay, I’m not really talking about a cat here…. I let emotion take over, I wasn’t thinking, I just was feeling. Which is my preference because I think WAY too much. When my rational side decided to show up for the party, I was just feeling the warmth, the breathing, listening to my own music.  Then I started to think at triple speed to make up for it’s absence.

Speaking of music, trying to explain to someone how I listen to music is very difficult. I don’t just hear it, I feel it, I let it consume me intentionally. I need music like I need water. When I can’t breathe, I let the rhythm dictate my respiratory rate.  When I need to just let go and let myself be me, when I need to remind myself of who I am, music lets me. I learn best with music, if I need to channel an emotion I use music. I don’t have to think, I just feel. I love to dance. I don’t care how it looks or what anyone else thinks about my technique, it makes me smile.

So just in case you care, here’s the playlist that I’ve been rockin’ the last few days.

  • Wolf Like Me – TV on the Radio*
  • Daylight – Matt & Kim
  • Bad Things – Jace Everette
  • Starstuck – Lady GaGa, Space Cowboy & Flo Rida
  • Need You Now – Lady Antebellum
  • Supermassive Black Hole – Muse
  • Electric Feel – MGMT
  • Again Again – Lady GaGa
  • The Seed (2.0) – The Roots & Cody Chestnutt
  • Symphonies – Dan Black

*Wolf Like Me: Pretty much for the past day I’ve listened to it probably 50 times if not more. I tried to describe it to someone who I’m not real certain of their musical preference, but I think it’s pretty wide range like mine. After running through a few terms that really didn’t accurately describe it once it came out, I settled upon “sinful” but it feels good. haha. But I just can’t get it out of my head, I feel a compulsion to listen to it over and over and over again.