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Better Things!!!

6 Mar

”…and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.” ~Marilyn Monroe

This probably has to be one of my favorite quotes. In my life, I’ve had good things. My last “good thing” fell apart a while ago, and I held onto it for dear life as long as I could hoping it would get better, fearful that nothing better could be out there for me. And, then one day, about a month and a half ago, I was completely certain that really letting go was the right thing to do. While my friends were going through turmoil of their own, with no certainty of anything in their lives, I knew that the only way I can be a better me, find a better love,  was to completely let it all go. The very second I did, better things started to fall together. I don’t worry like I used to, I’m so much happier a person, and I’ve really opened myself up to new people in my life. Just know that sometimes what you’re holding onto isn’t a life raft, you’ll sink with it if you don’t watch out.

Falling is what I want to do. Just enjoy the journey along the way.  I love adventures and I think I am embarking on a magnificent one in my life.

On the topic of adventure… an escape is to be made soon! I am SO excited! Mountains, here we come!! I can’t wait!

I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!!! (I’ll be working…but I bring home a paycheck, so it’s all good)

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Waking up From Deep Sleep – Handsome Prince = Still Acceptable Aquistion of Sleep

4 Mar

Apparently a deep, long period of sleep is a theme for the old school Princesses of the fairy tale world . Of course as far as Disney goes you’ve got, Aurora, Belle,  and then my favorite (based solely on her red lips and wardrobe) Snow White, after her fateful apple eating experience…at least it turned out good, handsomest prince and all.

Sadly I wasn’t awakened by my prince, but I did get some really good sleep! I have been lacking in that department more so than I thought. I am aware that you can’t *actually* make up for lost sleep, but I certainly feel better. I got off work, went to the gym (toned tummy here I come!!!), showered,  came home crashed, and was asleep by 0830.  I chronically suffer from insomnia, so I was surprised when I woke up at 1600, went to the ladies room, had some H2O, sent well wishes to a friend,  and went right back to bed until almost 2300.

So yay! I thought I’d share my outlandish happiness over pillow time. 🙂

Tomorrow is a JC day for me, but I’m conflicted about how long to stay… I was planning on attending a Post Secret  show, but I’m now contemplating otherwise.  I may just take my book and curl up at Starbucks for a few hours after I run my errands…quite honestly, though, I’m starting to get a little tired of Starbucks. The last few times I’ve been inside, the music has been very blue and the people seemed brooding. I normally get to meet and talk to quite a few people while I’m there. Maybe I’ll see if my bluegrass peeps are having a jam session, and chill there.

Whew there is a lot going on for me in March, and what I hoped to be a “take care of things away from work” month has turned into an “I’m sorry…did you expect to have a life outside of work?” month. Oh well…I still plan to cramming some personal time in.

Alright…I think that’s enough for today.

This is a happy blog. No :( here, promise!

3 Mar

I am a beautiful, vivacious, adventurous, overall happy gal. I’m not particularly cocky, but I am proud of myself for many things. I do try not to be boastful.  I say this, to say that I know I am not perfect by overall standards. I have plenty of “flaws” that several people recently have been all too happy to point out to me. But you know what? I am the most perfect Laila Ann possible! I am okay with that. I learn from my mistakes, I grow and become a better person. And if you know me, I don’t have to give you reasons to like me or want to spend time with me, because you just know I’m bouncy and quirky in a good way!  I have a lot to offer to the people in my life, if they’ll open up and let me. The only thing I can do, is be the best at being me and be true to myself. For better or worse that’s what you get with me! ❤

(just as a note, I hope maybe if you are having some issues that you realize that you can be a perfect you 🙂 …you don’t have to try to be a perfect someone else )

Much love to you all ❤

Re-cap of a great day!

28 Feb

I had a fantastic yesterday from start to finish!

Early morning I got to have some wonderful conversation. From the time I fell asleep to the time I woke up I had amazing dreams and felt so safe. After running a couple of errands around town, I headed to JC and went book shopping. I was looking for a specific nifty retro embroidery book…but I didn’t find it. I did however come away with a couple of reprinted Hard Case crime books and a cookbook “Hostess with the Mostess” that is FULL of retro recipes (and pics) that I cant wait to try out! Now… I just need someone to let me cook! lol! Yesterday evening I got to have dinner with Jamie and Chelsea. Then Starbucks with the gang. Followed by Tv and girl talk with Chelsea. I got to see everyone I care about that lives around here 🙂 Spending time with the people I love makes me extremely happy!!

She blogs when she’s bored…at least there’s no tequila involved.

25 Feb

I’m not really sure why I’m blogging tonight. I think it is out of sheer boredom. Haha.

I am so glad to have my cherry ChapStick back….actually it wasn’t lost, it was just missing. I didn’t know it.  Good ol’ Carmex is still the best for windy days and putting on before bed. But, cherry ChapStick is best for days and dates…I mean,really, what guy wants to taste carmax.  I didn’t think so.

I’ve been wondering how literally one should translate dinosaur. haha….no, no…I know better.

I really dislike wanting something with great intensity, it being right at my fingertips, and not being able to have it. I’m so stuck. I don’t know what to do. I suppose I actually DO know what to do. I sometimes just think having part of something is better than not having anything at all. At least I don’t have any allusions to the actual nature of the situation.

I’m back in the gym, after a week hiatus. I missed the BURN!!!! lol. Gotta get these abs rockin’ again.

I am very excited about going to the firing range soon. I’m just waiting on a firearm. But yay!! I plan on getting my carry permit around my birthday, and then get myself a pretty powerful birthday gift. Like this pink hello kitty 9mm.  Anyway….I’m excited and I hope to not be disappointed! I know I can do it!

I am cleaning the apartment. Well, not at this very moment. Right now I’m blogging. But, I’ve been cleaning up and cleaning out my place. I’m trying to thin out and eliminate all this extra stuff…I have way too much “just stuff”.

Also with the addition of my firearm, I now NEED a flashlight and a glowie necklace thingy . Thanks A Lot…I have been only moderately sucked into nifty glowy things that will consume funds. Shinies are still my favorite.

I need to make an escape. I need a vacation. I just don’t want to go on an adventure by myself. I have an idea….but those often get turned down, and I’m tired of being turned down, so I won’t even ask again (even though I was told it sounded like fun last time I went).

Anyway I hope everyone has a fantastic Thursday! Thanks for reading my rambling!

Oh what a night!

17 Feb

I don’t know if it even makes a difference.  I try to do right, be kind to others and,  I don’t lie.  I’ve worked on my attitude and things that “weren’t me” that were bothering me, and Lord knows who else.  I know I have failed and taken those that I care most about for granted at times. I had things that were weighing on me and I had to find a way to fix them, because the way I was trying wasn’t working. Well….I got my stuff fixed. I got “all in”, and now I got left behind.

I am so precise when I say something to people, especially when I want to make sure that I am not misunderstood.  I can’t read minds and I can’t assume what someone else means, I just hope I’m not too late.  But here I am,  Happy, but wanting something more. I just pray. I pray a lot.  But, I don’t give up. I am not a quitter…a procrastinator yes; a quitter, no.

Feeling like someone has given up on you, that you aren’t a worthy cause is the most excruciating pain. It manifests itself as a physical problem. But I feel much better than I did. I had some things, that if closure is what was needed, I needed to share. And I did. I wasn’t trying to be selfish or sway anyone. I just needed to let people know how I felt. If I died that day, that nothing was left unsaid and I could be at peace with it. That was the biggest burden off of me.

On another note….

I went to a masseuse the other day! what a wonderful experience. I really recommend it, if you’ve never done it before. It really wasn’t that expensive, $55 for an hour full body.

Tonight I went out with Chelsea, Nitin, Nisha and Toya to the Mellow Mushroom in JC. That was a blast!

Now, I’m fixing to head back out. I have to pick a movie! I don’t know what to see…and it seems like I’m always the one picking.  That’s okay though lol! I’ll survive.

Fate is something I do believe in, but it’s what you do with that initial nudge that makes the difference in the end.

15 Jan

I suppose I am in a writing mood today I have worked on a short story that I put away some time ago, written in my journal and am now on my 2nd blog. So, to anyone who takes the time out of your busy schedule to read my ramblings, thank you. Even if I don’t know who you are, I appreciate the comments.

I want to stress to everyone just how important time is. It is a precious commodity and no one seems to have enough of it. Money and gifts are not a substitute. Nothing to me says that you care more than showing me that I am worth your time. I have the desire sometimes to be moody, or peaceful, or happy, or content alone, but, for the most part I really enjoy being around people. I am adventurous. I love going and doing,but I also really enjoy spending quite time with people, watching a movie, cooking/eating dinner, just having another live human being around. …this requires time from more than one party. What makes this so insanely hard is I work nights and finding people on similar schedules, and things to do during that time is almost null. (And I really miss the sunlight on a regular basis) So for the most part I warp my sleep schedules on my days off to accommodate the general population’s so that I have time for my friends and loved ones.

But, at some point, there won’t be the option to spend time with the people you care about.  Make time, make arrangements to see the people you want to keep in your life. Because if they don’t feel like they are worth it, they move on to friends that do.

We never know what’s really going to happen tomorrow. It is a waste of time to be mad, angry, or sad all the time. These are important emotions and we need them. But, don’t waste your time on these things when there is joy out there and  people who want to share theirs with you.  Tell and show the people you love how much you love them. I try to tell my friends often and I hope they know I do.

So thank you again to those who take the time to read this, to make me feel loved and important.Every day, every moment is a blessing, I hope (even though it’s a ramble) that you take something from what I’ve said.